finally i'm painting again... :)

i love you Monet!!!!

i have this feeling...

i'm slowly floating up from the the deep bottom of the sea... moving away from the blackness and slowly moving toward the light... i'm close to the surface... so close to the surface...

but instead feeling peaceful... or joyful for reaching the surface.. i'm panicking...

i'm not sure if i'm a fish... or a bird drowning in the sea.

recently i've been thinking a lot about this whole life thing... the cliche stuff such as happiness and purpose of life... i wasn't sure why i'm doing what i'm doing... i knew i'm on a path to go somewhere but i didn't exactly know where... i thought i'm suppose to have a "bigger thing" in life that would be leading me...

i talked to a few people, then i realize... nobody really knew what's going on... we are all living a day at a time, a step at a time, moving forward aimlessly... but moving forward nonetheless... they speak of this thing called "happiness"... they say it's the simplest things in life... it's everywhere... in every moment... and that's what people are living for...

do i believe them?

do i let go of the struggle and let the wave push me onward, wherever it might take me? do i enjoy the moment and wait for tomorrow to bring me the unknown?

or will it make more sense to have a destination but without a path?

it just feels like...

i'm rising up too fast... or maybe not so fast... it's just that, i haven't made up my mind yet

Hi Chester :)